Scared or Sacred?

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I remember as a child being terrified of the dark; most likely due to nightmares from watching movies like Dracula and Frankenstein…or it could be from my two older sisters telling me that monsters lived under my bed and in the closet.  What are sisters for if not for giving one a reason to grow strong and courageous??l!!

When I was very young, I’m thinking 7-9 years of age, as I lay in bed after mom kissed me good night and closed the door, I would focus on the light coming from beneath the door from the TV and the living room lights.  As I focused on that light, the door would shrink to the size of a stamp and everything else in the room (including my body) grew very large.  I don’t recall having what might be called an out-of-body experience but I do remember that shrinking the door and becoming big made me feel safe and strong.

At the current youthful age of 66, I’m still not fond of going to bed and having the bedroom door totally closed.  I leave it open just a titch so that there is a bit of light available and knowing my husband, my knight in shining armor, is only a few stairs away from me should those monsters under the bed decide to show their ugly heads.

My experience with tarot has been immensely helpful in my journey through being scared of the dark — I used to see the Devil, the Tower and the Death cards as ominously foreboding. Now I know that when the Devil card appears in a reading (my own or someone else’s), it is a reminder to acknowledge and incorporate the dark side (we all have one); when the Tower appears, I know not to put all my eggs in one basket so to speak, that a major collapse of something held dear might be just around the corner; or if the Death card appears I’m actually jubilant!  Something is about to change drastically and letting go of things that no longer serve Life will aid in the transformation.

I have found that my journey has been more about seeking and embodying the sacred — rather than being scared.  It’s about seeing things with new eyes.

My Awakening the Tarot: Embodying the Cards classes are on Tuesdays at 6 p.m.  I’ve found the best way to awaken the awesomeness of tarot is by telling a story using the cards. We follow the cards as they are presented in Theresa Reed’s “The Tarot Coloring Book” (available at the Really Cool Gift Shop inside The Nutman Co. USA and other fine book stores).  Ahead of time, my normal (if there is such a thing) process is to shuffle the cards, cut the cards and draw 4 cards off the top.  Those 4 cards, along with the Significator card (this next Tuesday the story will be around the Death card) allow me to create a story.  I also add music that speaks to the energy of the story so that we can dance (I use Nia choreography) and then I end with a 20 minute meditation.

I’ve also been teaching Nia for 16 years. I searched most of my adult life for some kind of dance or exercise that allowed me to express myself.  I didn’t find it in the traditional dance or aerobics classes.  The first time I stepped into a Nia class in Dallas, Texas was in 1999. The experience was phenomenal and I knew I needed to find a Nia class in Wisconsin…and I did, and the rest as they say is history. Nia allows my body’s story to unfold. Nia uses 9 movements forms within the Dance Arts, Healing Arts and Martial Arts, all blended into an hour cardiovascular and spirited class.  Nia invites the realms of the Body, Mind, Emotions and Spirit to play with movements, steps and stances.

Manifesting a class that blends Nia and Tarot has been personally and creatively satisfying! Life led me from being a little girl scared of the dark to an older and wiser woman utilizing my experiences of the dark to shine a light into the lives of those who come to Sacred Space Studio.  Many come just to dance or just to find out more about tarot and ultimately find that their own life’s purpose and inner light unveils itself.

Has your life’s purpose unveiled itself?

Rising Up

If Not Now, When

My husband and I have been having conversations about change, about rising up to the challenge of letting go of some pretty ingrained behaviors.  One thing that we’ve come to learn in this process is that letting go of subtle attachments is not easy.  It’s not easy because it’s not easy to identify subtle attachments until they’ve raised their ugly heads.

Testy responses, emotionally-charged reactions, tones of voice, eye-rolling,  listening but not hearing…

Those behaviors have to go.  My purpose on earth is to become fully and wholly ME — not the human form that is known as Jill; not the mind that thinks it knows a lot; not the emotional center that wants to always have its way — but ME (the I Am), fully present, in touch with my divine nature.  The body, mind and heart will always be incomplete and “in progress”. The I Am is perfect NOW, and to discover the I Am doesn’t involve going to the mountain top and focusing on my belly button, or sitting in Lotus position Om-ing til the cows come home.

I Am — a Human BEING.  No, I am not just human — that is merely my form.  What animates that form is BEING charged by spirit.

I love living life in the moment, with clarity and purpose, with conviction and compassion, expressing truth through an incomplete mind, love through an incomplete emotional realm and life through an incomplete body, offering forgiveness to myself and others and always, always, always knowing that gratitude needs to be for ALL things.  There is no picking and choosing.  Am I always 100% in this precious space?

Lots of laughs and eye rolling for sure.  It sure is rewarding being aware of subtle shifts creating HUGE changes.  High five to the husband and me for making it a dance.

 

Will You Still Need Me?

I’m giving thanks for another year almost coming to a close.  In 52 days (but who’s counting?) I’ll turn 64 years of age on this earth.  I’ve looking forward to singing “When I’m 64” by the Beatles at my birthday celebration!  One of the lines in the song for anyone who isn’t familiar with it is “Will you still need me, will you still feed me, when I’m 64?”

To whom would I be asking this question?  Friends?  Relatives?  Spirit?

Perhaps I would ask my Self.  Hey Self..will you still need me?  Will you still feed me?  I can answer unequivocally “YES” to that question.  My Self (the truth of who I am, not the “self” which I would call the ego) needs me…needs my body, my mind and my heart in order to express the truth of who I am.  And I’m very much loving the sustenance with which I’m being fed.

Those who hunger and thirst for the truth find it.  It’s my mission, my purpose in life to continue to express the truth of who I am in every moment of every day.  Do I always find that I’m living my purpose?  Mostly, but I do have epic fails from time to time — keeps me on my toes and ever vigilant.

And so it goes.

Transformational Movement

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Nia is transformational movement.  Was it my subconscious that led me to Nia?  Perhaps it was through the wisdom of the Universe that I found Nia.   I originally thought I was drawn to Nia because it is done barefoot … or maybe it was the music … or perhaps the invitation to express creatively while moving.  Whatever the case, I am infinitely grateful for the opportunity to teach Nia…to share the wonderous benefits (which go waaaaay beyond the physical realm) and to become part of a world-wide community of people who share the love of dance…who actually embody conscious transformation.

Marilyn Gordon, Director of Life Transformation Associates, says, “The divine art of conscious transformation can happen in the flash of a moment and can change the entire outlook of our lives. Even though we set ourselves free at one moment, doesn’t necessarily mean that we set ourselves free the next. We have to keep working on it, keep at it, keep on remembering the transformational work we came here for and keep on bringing the light to every aspect of ourselves.

It is for this reason that I found Nia.  To be a shaman, a healer, a catalyst for others to find their way in this crazy world; to invite others to “remember the transformational work we came here for” — and what better way to bring that invitation than through the expressive, creative art of dance and movement.

A Nia class is not just a cardiovascular fitness practice — although it is definitely that!!  Nia is a lifestyle practice as well.  One begins to feel good about themselves and begins to notice the little things in our lives that keep us from stepping fully into our greatness.  We have within us an inherent “greatness” gene.  It’s always there…sometimes it gets hidden or tossed to the back recesses of our beingness; nevertheless, it is there.  

In a Nia class — at least in MY Nia classes — there is an hour filled with love and laughter and moving the body in ways that perhaps it has never moved in before and in moving the body, the mind and heart awaken to a different voice…a unique and expressly personal voice that beckons the invitation to rise up my love, my fair one, and come away.  So many people in the world have a less than divine sensing of who they are, yet the divine self waits for the layers of self-denial, self-doubt and low self-esteen to fall away, revealing the beauty and grandeur of Being.  

This is my purpose…my sacred livelihood.  To engender change, to be a transformative force in my world…and thus in THE world.  Nia is my platform, my mode of transportation…transformation is an ever-moving destination — one that brings me much joy as I dance through life.  My Life As Art.  Won’t you join me in the fantastic journey?  The first stop along the way is “Love Your Body.”

The Fifth Dimension

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I had to laugh when I read the quote above.  I do enjoy Daylight Savings Time, but  I’m not at all sure what purp0se it serves…seems to me it was created to help the farmers plant earlier in the spring and harvest later in the fall.  Humans are so good at trying to manipulate time.  In the end, time is time.  We still have to live our lives in the moment.  Now.  And now.  And now.

The Third Dimension is the Material World; the Fourth Dimension is Time and Space; the Fifth Dimension is where time collapses and we live life in the present moment…what we think manifests.  The Age of Aquarius (go ahead and sing it…I know you want to).

When the moon is in the seventh house
And Jupiter aligns with Mars
Then peace will guide the planets
And love will steer the stars
This is the dawning of the age
Of a Aquarius, the age of Aquarius
Aquarius, Aquarius
Harmony and understanding
Sympathy and trust abounding
No more falsehoods or derisions
Golden living dreams of visions
Mystic crystal revelation
And the minds true liberation
Aquarius, Aquarius
When the moon is in the seventh house
And Jupiter aligns with Mars
Then peace will guide the planets
And love will steer the stars
This is the dawning of the age
Of a Aquarius, the age of Aquarius.

And no amount of harmony and understanding, sympathy and trust abounding, golden living dreams of visions, mystic crystal revelation or peace guiding the plants and love steering the stars will happen until human beings let go of their desire, their misdirected need to manipulate the Third and Fourth Dimensions.  

The Fifth Dimension awaits…I certainly have had the opportunity to witness manifesting in the moment, haven’t you?  Some people call these moments miracles or magic.  Yes, they are miracles and they are magic to the simple human mind.  For those of us who have experience with Spirit though, these moments are what happen when one lives in alignment with the Universe, letting go of any greedy insistence on getting “more” — whether it be more money, a bigger car, a better house — or in just wanting more time.

The Age of Aquarius is here.   The Fifth Dimension is available.  Rest in the assurance, the realization and tranquility that whatever is, IS.  It doesn’t need to be changed. 

The damage is done, but it’s not too late.  Healing happens in an instant when we live in the moment, receiving and accepting what comes to us with gratitude.  Gratefulness in all things…no picking and choosing.  Being present.  Laughing. Dancing.  Moving through life with Joy. 

When the moon is in the seventh house…

 

 

 

 

 

Any Moment of Loving

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Any moment of hating, any moment of lying, any moment of resentment
Is a moment of dying.

Any moment of loving, any moment of giving, any moment of thankfulness
Is a moment of living.

All our moment add together like the digits of a sum
And the answer tells us plainly whether life or death shall come.

–Martin Exeter

It’s been my experience in the recent past of witnessing myself getting involved in the ugliness and hatred that seems to be currently rampant in the world…to the point of creating an imbalance in my physical and emotional well-being.  My reflux and anxiety have climbed to a point that a choice had to be made.

A.  Do I want to continue venting my frustration over the lack of leadership that I sense in the human nature world; do I want to continue to be a part of the insanity and madness that is driving humanity toward the brink of extinction?  Do I truly believe this is my purpose?

B.  Or do I want to be the voice, mind, heart and body of Love in action?  Do I want to fill my being and thus my world with the qualities and characteristics of Life, Love and Truth.  Do I sense that this is truly my sacred livelihood?

I choose Option B — for my physical, mental and emotional well-being and because that really is the truth of who I am.  That is my purpose.  That is my sacred livelihood.  It is what allows me to be in the place of stillness amidst a world in chaos; it is what allows me to be a beacon of light in a world of darkness.

The anger, resentment and immaturity that spits out of the mouths of those who are unconscious of their thoughts, words and action is truly regretable but understandable.  They know not what they do.

The anger, resentment and immaturity that spits out of the mouths of those who are conscious, who are awakened, who know their purpose, is reprehensible.  It goes against everything that is uplifting and joyful, everything that is radiant and made from the fabric of Love, everything that I espouse to be my life’s journey.

So, I can no longer be a willing participant in the divisiveness.  The path this world, this planet is traveling, does so because of humanity’s unwillingness to rise above their self-centered power struggle and state of disillusionment.  No wonder there is so much sickness, illness, disease, war, murder, rape, and abuse in the world.  How could it not be like that?  What is expressed into the world, creates the world.

The only power is in the power of Spirit.  Everything else will crumble and fall.

The ways of the world are not my ways.  And so I dance the dance of life.