Queen of Swords

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I think it’s pretty synchronistic that on this day specifically named to honor women, I would pick the Empress for my daily card.  Abundance, nurturing, beauty, maternal, birth — all of these and more are traits of the Empress.

I am a woman, a wife, a sister, a daughter, a dancer, a teacher, a tarot reader, an energy worker, a small business owner.  I am the mother of felines. I have no children by conscious choice. I’ve never regretted that decision. To anyone who would judge me as being less than whole for not going through childbirth I say this: I have given birth and nurtured the growth of countless creative projects, ideas, thoughts and dreams. I have dug my hands into the wet soil of the earth, planted seeds, watered and watched as trees, plants and flowers pushed forth into lush gardens for many to enjoy.

Along with my life partner (my husband and soulmate), I have grown a small business of 10 employees into a successful small corporation with 37 employees.

I honor my Mom who instilled in me a good work ethic. I honor my sisters who paved the way for me to grow up in a loving household.  I honor my girlfriends, past and current, goddesses who continue to offer me compassion and extreme companionship  through thick and thin.

I honor the girl I was, the woman I grew to be and the beautiful essence of feminine power I am today. My love, my earthy, grounded spiritual expression serves as notice to all:

I am Woman.  Hear me roar.

 

Rising Up

If Not Now, When

My husband and I have been having conversations about change, about rising up to the challenge of letting go of some pretty ingrained behaviors.  One thing that we’ve come to learn in this process is that letting go of subtle attachments is not easy.  It’s not easy because it’s not easy to identify subtle attachments until they’ve raised their ugly heads.

Testy responses, emotionally-charged reactions, tones of voice, eye-rolling,  listening but not hearing…

Those behaviors have to go.  My purpose on earth is to become fully and wholly ME — not the human form that is known as Jill; not the mind that thinks it knows a lot; not the emotional center that wants to always have its way — but ME (the I Am), fully present, in touch with my divine nature.  The body, mind and heart will always be incomplete and “in progress”. The I Am is perfect NOW, and to discover the I Am doesn’t involve going to the mountain top and focusing on my belly button, or sitting in Lotus position Om-ing til the cows come home.

I Am — a Human BEING.  No, I am not just human — that is merely my form.  What animates that form is BEING charged by spirit.

I love living life in the moment, with clarity and purpose, with conviction and compassion, expressing truth through an incomplete mind, love through an incomplete emotional realm and life through an incomplete body, offering forgiveness to myself and others and always, always, always knowing that gratitude needs to be for ALL things.  There is no picking and choosing.  Am I always 100% in this precious space?

Lots of laughs and eye rolling for sure.  It sure is rewarding being aware of subtle shifts creating HUGE changes.  High five to the husband and me for making it a dance.