Going Pro

3 cards Jill 8-23-17Once again, Surrender and Patience are key words to my question: “is it time to go professional with my tarot readings?”

Huge life lessons are among the 3-card spread above.  Surrender and Patience; Quiet Determination and Strength and a Blend of Intellect and Intuition come up for me to look at.

The Hanged Man in the position of “Where I Am Now”:  My tendency is to move quickly, jump in with both feet and then deal with the consequences later. I sort of did that earlier in the year when I created a website with the intention of including this blog as a part of it, but alas, it just turned out to be another blog (I needed to gather some more facts of obviously).  And now I don’t know how to merge the two blogs into one.  Sigh….Surrender and Patience indeed.

Strength in the position of “Where I’m Going”:  Quiet determination and strength is the name of the game right now. I can’t say that I’m very quiet much of the time in my determination — on occasion, yes, and certainly my inner strength is what is keeping me anchored. I love the image of the woman as a different kind of a lion tamer and the lion, although laying down is voicing his determination.

The Lovers in the position of “How I’m Going to Get There”:  I was a little disconcerted with The Lovers card in this position, but then this card doesn’t have to always reflect being in love or being in a relationship with another person (although it certainly can be).  In this instance, my intuition tells me that this card is about my relationship with tarot — moving forward professionally with practical magic.

And there ya have it.  Practical magic.  It’s the way I live my life, so why not how I read the cards!!

 

 

Rising Up

If Not Now, When

My husband and I have been having conversations about change, about rising up to the challenge of letting go of some pretty ingrained behaviors.  One thing that we’ve come to learn in this process is that letting go of subtle attachments is not easy.  It’s not easy because it’s not easy to identify subtle attachments until they’ve raised their ugly heads.

Testy responses, emotionally-charged reactions, tones of voice, eye-rolling,  listening but not hearing…

Those behaviors have to go.  My purpose on earth is to become fully and wholly ME — not the human form that is known as Jill; not the mind that thinks it knows a lot; not the emotional center that wants to always have its way — but ME (the I Am), fully present, in touch with my divine nature.  The body, mind and heart will always be incomplete and “in progress”. The I Am is perfect NOW, and to discover the I Am doesn’t involve going to the mountain top and focusing on my belly button, or sitting in Lotus position Om-ing til the cows come home.

I Am — a Human BEING.  No, I am not just human — that is merely my form.  What animates that form is BEING charged by spirit.

I love living life in the moment, with clarity and purpose, with conviction and compassion, expressing truth through an incomplete mind, love through an incomplete emotional realm and life through an incomplete body, offering forgiveness to myself and others and always, always, always knowing that gratitude needs to be for ALL things.  There is no picking and choosing.  Am I always 100% in this precious space?

Lots of laughs and eye rolling for sure.  It sure is rewarding being aware of subtle shifts creating HUGE changes.  High five to the husband and me for making it a dance.

 

Being a Shaman

Leave a trail of magic

I remember several years ago while retaking my Nia White Belt, the trainer asked all of the attendees what we would choose to be if there were a magic wand to make it so.  My answer was a Shaman.

In hindsight, looking back from the day that question was asked up to this current moment, that is exactly the path I have chosen.  I’ve taken several Shamanic Journey workshops and have facilitated a few.  A Shaman perceives everything that exists as alive and as having a spirit.  Shamanism is a path of the heart, not of the mind.  For those who need scientific evidence (required by the mind), you can stop reading now.

I’ve been teaching Nia for 15 years.  My Nia classes all begin in a circle — which is sacred in itself.  I see every class beginning with a ceremony.  We set an intention and then we dance that intention with our bodies.  Sandra Ingerman, in her book Walking in Light: the Everyday Empowerment of a Shamanic Life says, “Ceremony creates a relationship between humans and the creative forces of the universe where intention leads to an action that manifests as change in the physical world.”  THIS is my world — the world of change.  Nia invites change.  Many of my students who have been with me for years have experienced profound changes in their lives — they were and continue to be willing to grow and evolve and move with life’s challenges.

I love my life, the path I find myself traveling and those with whom I share this path.