Victory

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Victory.  Success.  Gratitude.  Humility.

I’m not sure if Victory comes first and then Success, but either way I think you get my drift.  Often times with victory and success, the “big-head” syndrome starts and one’s chest puffs out and one struts one’s stuff, being all proud up in everyone’s face. That is not attractive to me.  I plan on having a victory soon, followed by success. Then…gratitude. Gratitude for the gifts I’ve been given to share with the world.

Gratitude rests in the heart waiting to be seen, heard, felt, offered…and gratitude is followed by humility.  Humility.  Say it with me.  Humility.  When I Googled “humility”, the definition was “a low view of one’s importance.”  Huh?  That’s certainly not what I feel humility to be.

So I found this quote:  “When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom.”  Yes. With humility comes wisdom. Truth.

May your victories be successes and may you offer gratitude back to the Universe and in return bask in humility.

A Garden of Being

Campana's Gardens Metal Structure

My husband and I have had a garden party every summer for 15 years.  We invite our friends, neighbors, our staff and our business customers — most of who fit into the friend or neighbor category, too.

The picture is of a metal structure that was gifted to my husband by four really good friends for his upcoming birthday.  We intend to move it to “the perfect spot” when we find it.  We have 2 1/2 acres of paths, gardens, a pond, a vineyard and truthfully it’s just an awesome sanctuary, if I say so myself.

I came in from this sanctuary just moments ago and felt I had to state my gratitude for life’s design. I had been sitting at one of our newer seating areas — a new deck built by another good friend — and as I looked out on the property and looked at the pond and then watched my cat, Gloria, walk over to me and flop down beside me, I was moved to tears. Life has been good to me AND I’ve been good to life.  If it wasn’t for me following life’s designs throughout the years, I wouldn’t be sitting at the dining room table typing this into my blog.

Even our modest house is harkening me to tears:  the downstairs rooms painted several years ago by another good friend.  The colors:  Paprika and Sage Green in the kitchen, Cashew and Sage Green in the living room and Paprika in the hallway. The colors are still rich and stunning even after these several years.

Gratitude for this garden of being — inside and outside.  Gratitude for my garden of being — my body, my mind, my heart guided and served by Spirit.

Among the many aspects within my stewardship , I give tarot readings and the cards say this is a year of manifesting my dreams.  The cards never lie.

 

 

Tarot Tuesday

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I had this brainiac idea two years ago to combine my love for Nia and my love for Tarot.  Alas, it was not to be until 2016.

My own Tarot guru (www.thetarotlady.com) did an Entrepreneurcast in 2015 for me. The words I took from her beautiful work for 2015:  Dream, Create, Study, Learn, Inquire and Prepare.

My previous blog post alluded to my tapping into tarot by using a tarot card for each Nia class…well, the Universe had a different plan based on my Entrepreneurcast and my decision to do something more in-depth with Tarot and Nia!  Voila’!!  Tarot Tuesday was born.

Here’s how it goes:  One of my students gives me a question.  I do a tarot reading and then sit with it a bit and the final step before taking it to class is to find music to go with the reading….I call it “dancing the cards.”  The actual reading takes about 15-20 minutes at the beginning of class.  We all gather around enlarged paper copies of the Celtic Cross tarot layout. I do the reading.  In the moment feedback is encouraged and welcomed.  Then I pick up the cards and we dance.

To date, Tarot Tuesday has been well-received and well-attended!!  SUCCESS!!  It was foreseen that this would be the result…a lot of hard work, studying learning, inquiring of the cards and preparing the classes has been absolutely AWESOME.

In case you’re wondering, I use the Chyrsalis tarot deck. It’s a non-traditional tarot deck. It drew me in and speaks quite clearly to me and through me.

Combining Nia and Tarot, my two passions for creative inspiration and expression is nothing less than perfect…I made a decision and the Universe conspired to make it happen.  Not in my time, but in spirit’s.

I am blessed to have a Nia community with open mind and open hearts.  They are all my heroes.

 

 

Rising Up

If Not Now, When

My husband and I have been having conversations about change, about rising up to the challenge of letting go of some pretty ingrained behaviors.  One thing that we’ve come to learn in this process is that letting go of subtle attachments is not easy.  It’s not easy because it’s not easy to identify subtle attachments until they’ve raised their ugly heads.

Testy responses, emotionally-charged reactions, tones of voice, eye-rolling,  listening but not hearing…

Those behaviors have to go.  My purpose on earth is to become fully and wholly ME — not the human form that is known as Jill; not the mind that thinks it knows a lot; not the emotional center that wants to always have its way — but ME (the I Am), fully present, in touch with my divine nature.  The body, mind and heart will always be incomplete and “in progress”. The I Am is perfect NOW, and to discover the I Am doesn’t involve going to the mountain top and focusing on my belly button, or sitting in Lotus position Om-ing til the cows come home.

I Am — a Human BEING.  No, I am not just human — that is merely my form.  What animates that form is BEING charged by spirit.

I love living life in the moment, with clarity and purpose, with conviction and compassion, expressing truth through an incomplete mind, love through an incomplete emotional realm and life through an incomplete body, offering forgiveness to myself and others and always, always, always knowing that gratitude needs to be for ALL things.  There is no picking and choosing.  Am I always 100% in this precious space?

Lots of laughs and eye rolling for sure.  It sure is rewarding being aware of subtle shifts creating HUGE changes.  High five to the husband and me for making it a dance.

 

Moving into 2015

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“You can’t forgive without loving. And I don’t mean sentimentality. I don’t mean mush. I mean having enough courage to stand up and say, ‘I forgive. I’m finished with it.”  — Maya Angelou

The guideposts for me moving into 2015 are:  GRATITUDE AND FORGIVENESS

Within those two words my creative process will unfold as DREAM, CREATE, STUDY, LEARN, INQUIRE, PREPARE.  I found it interesting that the first new Nia (www.nianow.com) routine I selected to teach in 2015 is called “Dream.”  I love synchronicity.  So, I’m literally “moving” into 2015 with the first word in my creative process — Dream!!

In order for me to bring forth anything new, I have to let go of the old.  I’ve tried stuffing the old into the new, hoping that perhaps a few bulges here and there could be overlooked.  But not so.  The old has to be let go…completely.  My way, the only way I have found to do this, is to forgive and to be grateful.

And as Maya Angelou’s quote suggests, it takes courage.  Courage enough to stand up and say “this far and no further.”  It’s done.  I forgive and now I must move on in gratitude.  The two go hand in hand, gratitude and forgiveness.  They are the mother and father of liberation.

I am free to dream, create, study, learn, inquire and prepare.  My creativity has no boundaries. I am unleashed.

Pressure is a Privilege

Welcome pressure

I’m an avid football fan.  This morning I was watching the NFL channel as they interviewed Larry Fitzgerald from the Arizona Cardinals.  He said, “Pressure Is a Privilege.”  He was of course talking about the pressure his team is sensing with the loss of their quarterback and their push for their division’s title which would give them home field advantage if they were to do so.  I am not an Arizona Cardinal football fan, but I am a fan of pressure.

Back along my spiritual education path, one of my mentors said, “Welcome Pressure.”  At the time those words did not sound inviting.  At the youthful age of 64 (well, almost 64 — exactly 31 days from today, but who’s counting), I can say I understand those words, I acknowledge them as part of my daily living.

The world’s ways (which are not my ways) are to eliminate pressure, to find someone to blame for the pressure, to pursue violence in the name of pressure.  Accusation, blame and criticism are the results of allowing pressure to dominate, rather than allowing pressure to build and release as a creative process.

When pressure begins to build and I am not aware of its intensity, anger is the emotion that shows itself. There was a time when I did not know how to creatively release anger…and when anger raises it’s ugly head and I don’t release it creatively, it winds up locking itself up somewhere in my body — usually in my neck or shoulders. Anger is ancestral; not just in my family ancestry, but in human ancestry.

Two days ago I felt my father’s presence (he’s been deceased since 2005).  I remember saying, “Hi daddy.”  I waited to see if there was a message of some kind.  Nothing.  So I went about my day and that night I had a horrible nightmare.  I woke up the following morning with my shoulder and neck locked up in pain.  There was nothing I could do or did do that relieved it.  I sought out help from a healer who told me that my pain was ancestral on my father’s side.  She knew nothing of the visit from my dad.  My dad had a quick temper; other than anger, I really never saw him emote much at all.  The anger was never directed at me or anyone in my family to my knowledge.  I recognize that anger in me.  So last night I set the intention to resolve the pain in my shoulder.  The message during the night was “release the guilt, you are enough.” I’ve never been troubled by guilt — except for the fact that I never took the time to really know my dad until I was much older. I realize now that I’ve been holding that guilt in for quite some time.  As soon as I embodied the message of releasing the guilt and realizing that who I have become would make my father very happy, my shoulder pain released. Magic.

How about you?  Are you a flawless diamond in the making or is life making you a basket case? What do you do to allow the pressure to release creatively?  I dance, I meditate, I share Reiki, I dabble in Tarot reading.

I am grateful for pressure.  I sense myself to be very much in the process of becoming a flawless diamond. Thank you daddy.

Gratitude in ALL Things

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I recently offered a Mindful Meditation class. Part of the class was geared toward identifying and acknowledging the inner voice of criticism. My invitation to the students was to avoid the temptation to rid themselves of this voice and instead give thanks for it. I have found that giving thanks, offering gratitude in ALL things (no picking and choosing) actually alters that critical voice. It no longer has any power and there is no thin skin in which to sink its talons. Gratitude alters ANY situation.

I spent a recent weekend at a Shamanic Journeying workshop. It had been over 20 years since my days in New Jersey attending Shamanic Journey training. I loved it then and it was exhilarating to reconnect with this powerful experience again. There are a multitude of scenarios that can occur during a journey; some of them making no sense whatsoever and only clarifying at some later point. It was during one of these recent journeys that I found my inner critic saying, “This is nonsense, you have better things to be doing.” “You really think this mojo works? You don’t have the patience or the fortitude for this kind of work.” Thankfully (there’s that gratitude!!), I had connected with a Spirit Guide who simply invited me to “just be grateful and move on.” I pictured my inner critic in a physical form, face to face and said “Thank you. I am grateful for what you say, but it is not the truth.” Pffft…the physical form of my inner critic was gone in an instant. After that experience (which was early on in the weekend), my journeys and training were immensely powerful and healing.

Negative energy in any form cannot sustain itself in the face of gratitude. Remember that. Gratitude in ALL things.  

I teach Nia. In and of itself, Nia is transformative. Transformative movement. Shamanic Journeying is transformative. Combining the two for my own personal Nia practice is an exciting prospect.

My Nia classes will continue to be pure Nia, and as I mentioned before, Nia is transformative movement. The intention and motivation for one’s Nia practice is key. There are a plethora of benefits for doing Nia: fun, weight loss, muscle toning, releasing and relieving stress, focus, emotional balance, self-esteem, self-confidence, more strength, more stability, more flexibility, more agility, more mobility…and the list goes on. 

Come and dance with me. Experience your own personal transformative journey with Nia. Your inner critic will tag along I’m sure, but give it no energy except for gratitude. Your inner critic has no power in the face of gratitude and joy. 

DANCE, MOVE, CREATE CHANGE, EXPRESS SPIRIT!!!