Letting Go, No Judgment


I am constantly amazed at Nia’s ability to draw forth from me more of my creative in-the-moment capabilities.  

Last week I was attending the Blue Belt Nia Intensive with Caroline Kohles and Winalee Zeeb.  My first time through the Blue Belt Intensive was in September of 2003, so here I was 10 years later revisiting Communication, Relationship and Intimacy (the cornerstones of Blue Belt).  There is a great deal of information that is shared in Nia Intensives…academic as well as somatic.  

Being a Black Belt since 2008, I was under the mistaken impression that I would be “reviewing” the Blue Belt principles…HA HA HA.  Yes, certainly reviewing was part of the process, but WHOA Nellie…embodying the principles was never so evident.  Amazing, magical, wonderous, marvelous, ecstatic rippling waves of recognition occurred as I moved with and was moved by the physical realm, the mental realm, emotional realm and spirit realm (lovingly referred to in Nia as BMES).

Winalee and Caroline are two of Nia’s original Trainers.  Along with energizing the Intensive with their own spirits, what they offered to me or what I took in from them was the essence of letting go, letting go and letting go.  No judgment.  Such a seemingly simple thing to do…if I’m holding on to something and let it go, I no longer am holding on to it…right?  Ahhhh grasshopper, there is much to learn about letting go.  And I’m having the time of my life right now doing so!!!  

Another of the fantasmagorical life-changing moments from Blue Belt was the two phrases:  “what am I bringing to the relationship?” and “what can I bring instead?”  Life-changing…opens up a whole new world.  

Last, but not least, I’d like to say that I have had the opportunity to not only witness, but be in full experiential mode with this letting-go-no-judgement-what-am-I-bringing-to-the-relationship-and-what-can-I-bring-instead way of living as I taught my Saturday and Monday Nia classes after returning from the Blue Belt.  On Saturday, I took a routine I had been working with for a couple of weeks and decided to do totally in-the-moment choreography using Nia’s 52 Moves.  My plan worked beautifully.  I received lovely feedback from many of the students in class that day.  So, I decided to do it again on Monday.  Oh how the Universe loves to creatively play with me.  My iPod froze up.  What to do, what to do.  What am I bringing to the relationship?  Anxiety.  What can I bring instead?  Joy!!!  And of course the fact that my good friend and fellow Nia teacher, Kathy Rink, was in class that day, had her iPod with her and after a moment of “trying” to decide what Nia playlist to use, she offered that she had a “Chillout” playlist.  OMG.  Can I?  Should I?  Dare I teach in the moment without even knowing the music?  It took about 5 seconds for the Universe to kick me in the butt and utter the words, “Go for it, Kathy.  Put it on.”  

Perfection.  Magical.  Creative.  Holy cow.  No judgment.  I let go.  As a Black Belt, this should be second nature to me (ooops…is that a judgment?).  I’ve taught individual “songs” before in the moment.  And only one other time just prior to attending my Black Belt Intensive in 2008 did I teach an entire routine without knowing the music (ala Mary Carol Rick’s divine playlist).  Five years later, I do it again with an ENTIRELY different experience.  In 2008, I was so totally aware of all the mistakes, the tendencies, the this and the that.  In 2013, no judgment.  Totally present.  JOY lead the way.  The Nia 52 Moves provided the platform.  Life As Art. So cool.  I want more.  And guess what???  I can have it!!!  YAY ME!!!

11 responses to “Letting Go, No Judgment

  1. OMG is right! (judgement? lol) I LOVE the story of the freezing iPod. I have almost had that scare (and not with a well-known class, but a playshop class for total Nia newbies!). So I will take comfort in your tale and allow and let go of this fear!
    I love blue belt and look forward to retaking it soon!
    Thank you for sharing your journey. I really love hearing about it. I feel connected with the wider network of dancing healers of the world!

  2. I love this post! I find myself smiling. Your ‘being’ comes across so openly in your writing. Thank you for sharing!

  3. SO wonderful to share your joy. You express yourself with such elegant enthusiasm and clarity. I FEEL you when I read your words. Thank you!

  4. Blue was awesome. Sooooo much information. I have yet to get to more details in my posts. I love that you asked yourself what you are bringing when your iPod froze and you were able to adjust. Yay! I am sohappy you enjoyed it!

    (PS Not sure how your iPod froze, but when it does that see if you can flash it! When mine freezesnoften the flashing works! But sometimes it is just frozen.)

    • Hi anniversary girl!!! When I saw the title of your blog “21 and 15” — heh heh — I thought perhaps John was 21 and you were 15 when you got married (just kidding). I did attempt to “flash” it (if what you’re referring to is holding the middle button and the top arrow together until the Apple logo pops up). I couldn’t even get it to do THAT!! The next day I did though. Thanks!!

      • Ha, ha, ha! That is funny. (Him 21 and me 15)

        Yeah, that is what I mean by flashing it. Bugger just froze, huh? Well, it sounds as if that didn’t stop you. YAY!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s