Breaking Open

I had an epiphany today…actually just a few seconds ago.  Just when I think I’ve offered someone else a “lesson”, ffffwap!  It’s my lesson to be learned.  My motto recently is “I’m breaking open”.  It’s not violent, it doesn’t hurt (well, I can’t actually say it doesn’t hurt…perhaps not physically speaking anyway), there’s no mess to clean up (yeah, right)…it’s just a breaking open.  It starts with a little crack in the seam of my closely guarded, lightly armored heart.

It is my belief that through teaching and passionately sharing the principles of Nia (you do know what Nia is by now, yes??), by offering and passionately sharing Reiki, by opening myself to the mysteries of Tarot, by answering questions around what’s not working well with regard to my creativity, what are my weaknesses, what are my powers…well, the crack just begins to widen and there the stuff behind those walls is pretty darned scary…stuff I’d forgotten about, stuff that was from another lifetime. And by that I mean BC (before consciousness).

So here I am breaking open, it’s not pretty, but it’s healthy.  It’s not fun, but it’s necessary.  It is in living color and I get to be the creator/inspiration for what comes next.  That’s pretty freaking awesome.  When I stop to think about it, I swoon — I use the word swoon because there is a palpable sensation that emerges with the word “swoon.”  It’s a word that invites anticipation, romance and passion.  It’s so much more colorful than “faint.”  Faint connotates dropping on the floor — unconscious.  Swoon leaves me feeling dazzled, but conscious.

The breaking open is empowering.  It is life-altering.  And it is the best excuse (if one needs an excuse)  to dance through life — not with hobnail boots but barefoot, liberating, twirling, swirling, cascading, reaching, expressing…changing and transforming moment by moment.

 

Smaller Movements

I seem to waffle between posting on my blog a lot or posting very seldom. Anyone else have that issue? I have the intention to blog every day, I just don’t do it. I’m going to reinstate the intention here that I would like to blog more often.

About a week ago, I started writing “morning thoughts” (yes, writing…as in longhand, cursive). Except for the weekend (do weekends count?), I have been true to writing down my thoughts without caring about proper punctuation or spelling — just stream of consciousness writing which pretty much amounts to getting all the buzzkill crap out of my head and onto paper.

A friend of mine posted on Facebook this morning about not always having to “push through” (relating to the fitness myth of having to push through pain or resistance in order to achieve greatness) but instead to use smaller movements, to even rest while moving.

Those words struck me deeply. As a Nia practitioner, my goal in every class is to bring a variety of movements and energies — but mostly I love the big movements — whether Tae Kwon Do kicks and punches or (Isadora) Duncan’s playful, freestyle of dance movements.

I’ve noticed that my physical stamina is not what it used to be. At the age of 30, I was doing amateur weightlifting (ala Arnold) and going to the health club EVERY day using all the machines and taking aerobics classes. My body was buff. At the age of 40, I gave the health club, machines and aerobics classes up and began to search for other types of dance exercise. I found Gabrielle Roth’s 5 Rhythms and Rudolf Steiner’s Eurythmy, which ultimately led me to Nia.

At the age of 63 (closing in on 64 — will you still need me?), I am committing to making smaller movements, slowing down, quieting down. That does not mean my Nia classes won’t be kick ass spectacular, they will be. But there will be a difference and it will be magical.

Opening to the Light

During the past several months, I’ve been under the tutelage of a Reiki Master Teacher (and good friend, Kathy Rink) training to become a Reiki Master Teacher myself.

Our last formal class was yesterday. I receive my Reiki Master Teacher attunement in late September.

Some of the most incredulous realizations, images, dreams and experiences have occurred during this training.

I became more grounded through the Root chakra. I opened up to knowing that shame cannot exist in the same place as the sacred – check out the article I wrote for a new project created by Theresa Reed and Debra Smouse. http://www.midlifemidwifeproject.com/2014/08/10/re-awakening-sacred/.

Personal power redefined itself for me with the Solar Plexus chakra; closed areas of my heart were gently accessed and given permission to blossom without fear. I recognized and acknowledged that I do voice my truth with integrity into the world through my Throat chakra.

During the time given to explore my Brow chakra (Third Eye), I remembered a time when I was a small child, terrified of the dark. My mom would come in and kiss me goodnight and the door would close into total darkness…except for a small slit under the door…the light emanating from the living room gave me solace. There were a few times, I’m unable to pinpoint how old I was — perhaps 6, 7 or 8 years of age — when I would focus on this little slit of light and all of a sudden it would burst into a huge flash of light. The door would become quite small (think Alice in Wonderland) and I would feel safe and secure in this light. Then the light would fade, the door would come back to its normal size but I would have a sensing that I needn’t be afraid of the dark. This was probably the first experience I had of opening to the Light.

The Crown chakra is like a lotus blossom unfurling its petals, receiving and connecting with the Divine. I was 30 years old when I began…or was invited to begin…a journey of spiritual awakening.

I’m 63 now. The journey continues, however, I’ve known for quite a few years that I am the source, not the seeker. The journey is within me and unfolds organically as I remain in place to give and receive the gifts of love, truth and life. I already know the answer to “will you still need me, will you still feed me, when I’m 64″.

My journey has led me to many people and many experiences. One of the most mind blowing, heart opening, body changing, spirit expressing experiences is my ong-going Nia practice. If you haven’t danced, moved, expressed spirit or invited change into your life, what are you waiting for?

My Reiki practice is open by appointment. My Nia practice continues with 3 super-charged classes a week — no appointment or experience necessary! Along with my 3 Nia classes is an additional opportunity to dance with Kathy Rink. Here’s our Nia schedule: Mondays & Saturdays and 9 a.m.; Wednesdays at 6 p.m., Thursdays with Kathy at 9 a.m. Every 2nd Wednesday of the month I have a “Night In After Nia” where we commune together after class for fun, frolic and food.

Life just doesn’t get much better.

The practical side of “being spiritual”

The practical side of being spiritual is non-existent from my observation of many folks today — mostly our youth — who are desperate to “be spiritual” or have spirituality in their lives. There’s no sense of urgency to get on with one’s life…”spirit will take care of everything.”

No. Spirit will not take care of everything. Spirit is there…just like the mind, the body and emotions…to use with a sense of practicality. One has to act in a responsible and accountable manner with integrity and respect…and THEN spirit takes care of things.

I had a thoughtless encounter the other day…I was being practical, but I could’ve been more thoughtful with my words. My intention today is to let it go since the whole matter has ZERO to do with my life and ye it has everything to do with the energy of responsibility, accountability and practicality…and being spiritual.

Practical spiritual expression. Living with integrity takes guts and some brains. It takes being honest with one’s motives, one’s intentions, one’s wants and needs. It also takes self-confidence and the desire to be out in the world living one’s truth. Moving consciously.

Blessings and Miracles

So.  Life, as my husband and I knew it, changed on May 28, 2014.  My previous blog post spoke about it.  The Universe answers prayers (whatever you consider a prayer to be) in record time these days.  We lose someone close to us and a major player in our business and voila’, just the right person (or so we thought) comes to us with an offer we can’t refuse.  Perfect.  And so life is back on track and we begin to pick up the pieces.  Oh but wait…not so fast the Universe says…that was much to easy.  The Universe says to us “you talk a lot about staying in the place of the Most High, well, let’s see what happens with the rubber meets the road.”  Just as quickly as this perfect person decided to work for us, a different decision is made a couple of weeks later than perhaps it’s not so perfect after all.  Okay, Universe.  Throw me the ball.  I’m ready.

So in a nutshell (funny I should use that term since our company is The Nutman Co. USA, Inc.), the winds blew one direction one day and then tossed everything up in the air and blew them a different direction the next day.  The rubber met the road and it hit a speed bump.  Does a speed bump deter a well-trained winning race driver?  I think not.  

Clearly we MUST see these circumstances that come to us as blessings…blessings in the form of a road map and an internal GPS system.  If we stay in the driver’s seat and maneuver through life’s obstacle course with grace and gratitude, we will be shown the way to the winner’s circle.  Miracles manifest by trusting this internal guidance system.

A friend once wrote, “Our experience of miracles could include such things as life itself, our consciousness, the ability to reason, the experience of loving and so on. Then there are countless other miracles that relate to all the blessings that have come to us in our lives.  Hopefully, we each can see the miraculous way in which the personal affairs and emerging design of our lives have all unfolded.”

Yes, I certainly can.  Life has a design.  I don’t question it anymore.  I open myself to the constant movement of the Universe and find a plethora of gifts streaming forth.  If I were to think of all the things I’ve done and where I’ve been and what it took to be here in this moment…well, it would be truly mind-blowing.  But I Am Here Now.  And life’s adventure is unfolding at record speed.

My seatbelt and my helmet are on.  The engine is revving.  Bring on the obstacle course and the speed bumps.  It is a privilege to participate consciously in this delightfully crazy adventure.

Va-va-va-vroom!  Let the blessings and the miracles continue.

The Design Unfolds

Fall apart

I am certain God has a plan.  There is a design unfolding, I’m just not certain what it is.

My husband and I lost a good friend and major player in the business yesterday.  Unexpectedly.  Gone.  Just like that.

I am certain God has a plan.  There is a design unfolding, I’m just not certain what it is.  I don’t question it.  I trust.  God and Love never fail.  Humans…well that’s a totally different story, too long to tell in a blog.

An angel came into our lives 3 years ago, at a time when we were scratching our heads about how the business was going to continue to flourish.  He said yes to everything we asked.  He was a man of true integrity.  He always kept us an arm’s length away from anything personal, and we respected that about him.  He was an honest man, a loving man, a compassionate man.  A man who loved photography.  A man who loved children.  A man who loved God more than life itself.

I am certain God has a plan.  There is a design unfolding.  I’m just not certain what it is.  But I know that this man will be greatly missed on the planet and although his physical presence is no longer with us, I know that his spirit is still around.  He loved playing games.  He loved sarcasm.  He had a totally dry wit.  And as I sit here creating this blog post, I can hear him say, “don’t you have something else better to do…like go outside and enjoy the beautiful weather? I’m fine, really I am. Go. Go.”  Thank you, Jim, for all the love you showered on us, our business, your friends, the world.  Your radiant spirit is present.

I am certain God has a plan.  We are willing participants in its unfolding.  There is a design, I’m just not certain what it is but I know that the Truth is True and All is Well, Unconquerable Life Prevails.

 

 

 

Always Something Good!

niachick:

This particular blogger is a favorite of mine — and this specific blog post spoke to me today. I love the Maya Angelou quote…more importantly I love how we always receive what we need to hear if we’re willing to listen. These words were very appropriate for a personal situation today…one in about which I was less than happy, but my husband said, “It’s not about the other person and what they should or shouldn’t have done; it’s about how one responds to the situation.” I am here to uplift and inspire. I can’t do that if I’m busy being in a snit about something fairly insignificant in the larger picture.

Originally posted on Terre Pruitt's Blog:

Dance Exercise, Nia, Nia at the City of San Jose, Nia classes in the South Bay, Nia Teacher, Nia Class, San Jose Nia, Nia San Jose, Nia workout, Nia, Zumba, PiYo, Gentle Yoga So . . . . how are you all doing?  Are you still filling that Goodie Jar ?  I am.  This is one of the things I have put in my jar . . . hence the crease in the middle of it.  I wrote on the back and folded it up and added to the jar of good things.  A friend sent it to me in a card.  It is a great motto!  Yeah, remember the Good Things Jar . . . it is an “exercise” in recognizing and being aware of the good things that happen every day even among the things that cause us sorrow.  When my mom got sick I asked her, I said, “Mom, I know you are sick and it is a very sad and scary thing, but is it ok if I am still happy about things?”  I didn’t want her to think…

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