Being a Shaman

Leave a trail of magic

I remember several years ago while retaking my Nia White Belt, the trainer asked all of the attendees what we would choose to be if there were a magic wand to make it so.  My answer was a Shaman.

In hindsight, looking back from the day that question was asked up to this current moment, that is exactly the path I have chosen.  I’ve taken several Shamanic Journey workshops and have facilitated a few.  A Shaman perceives everything that exists as alive and as having a spirit.  Shamanism is a path of the heart, not of the mind.  For those who need scientific evidence (required by the mind), you can stop reading now.

I’ve been teaching Nia for 15 years.  My Nia classes all begin in a circle — which is sacred in itself.  I see every class beginning with a ceremony.  We set an intention and then we dance that intention with our bodies.  Sandra Ingerman, in her book Walking in Light: the Everyday Empowerment of a Shamanic Life says, “Ceremony creates a relationship between humans and the creative forces of the universe where intention leads to an action that manifests as change in the physical world.”  THIS is my world — the world of change.  Nia invites change.  Many of my students who have been with me for years have experienced profound changes in their lives — they were and continue to be willing to grow and evolve and move with life’s challenges.

I love my life, the path I find myself traveling and those with whom I share this path.

Start Now.

Leave a trail of magic

It’s been an incredibly long time since I’ve blogged…I actually don’t have any idea how long, but it seems like ages.  Must be the planetary influences that keep me from doing what I need to do. Or perhaps I just don’t need to do it. Imagine that.

The funk has been around for months.  There’s just this underlying, vibrational, energetic push/pull thing and I know it’s not just me.  I also say the world is one big stage with hundreds of people wanting to be heard.  The cacophony of everyone trying to talk the loudest.  We’ve got everyone under the sun wanting everyone else to believe that their lives matter.  Nothing is left out —  race, religion, sexual preference, gender preference, political paths…you name it and there’s someone with a bull horn trying to get my attention.

The way to get my attention is to stop trying to get my attention.  Just stop the insanity.

The world’s way are not my ways. The funk will not win. Rise up my loves, my fair ones and come away.  The victim state is not a pretty one.

You say you want a revolution…make it a vibrational one — raise it up. Let the world’s way disintegrate from lack of substance. There’s ways to create change without all of the killing, without all the lying, without all the hate.

Start now.  The only choice is love.

I Am Still Here

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It’s been a bit of time since I’ve posted on my blog…early January was the last post, shortly after I was offered (by spirit) the guidepost words of Gratitude and Forgiveness for moving into 2015.  Along with those two guidepost words, I was also given (as an invitation from spirit):  Dream, Create, Study, Learn, Inquire and Prepare, Infinity and Dance.

My journey through this invitation from spirit has been nothing less than amazing.  My dream was to create something new and exciting in my studio for those who are looking to expand, to grow, to manifest their own dream(s).  Shortly after this invitation was offered to me, I received a Facebook invitation to an event — a Long Distance Learning (my favorite kind since I don’t like to travel) Kai Earth Immersion.  Kai, developed by Kelly Atkins (who I’ve known since 2001 but have never met in person), is a fitness practice based on the elements of nature (Water, Air, Earth, Fire and Wood) using the architecture of authentic movement, a deepening of a relationship with one’s body — for me it’s a conversation with my own divine nature while moving through an internal landscape of sensations and emotions.

As those of you who have been following my blog know, I’ve been teaching Nia for 14 years.  My passion for sharing and teaching Nia has not dwindled one iota by adding Kai into my class offerings.  In fact, Kai has allowed me to deepen my own relationship with Nia.  The two practices, Nia and Kai, are both cardiovascular in nature (depending on the energy one wishes to expend); however I can also say that the two are as different as night and day — neither better than the other — both offering a wealth of body/mind/emotion/spirit information through movement.

You can find out more about Nia by checking out You can find out more about Kai by checking out  AND you can actually experience both of these unique fitness practices by attending my classes.  Nia is taught at my studio on Saturday, Monday and Thursday mornings at 9 a.m., Wednesdays at 6 p.m.  Kai is taught on the first two Tuesday evenings of every month at 6 p.m.  As more folks become aware of and interested in my Kai classes, I will expand those offerings.

I am still here…awash in the creative waters of inspiration and movement.  I am dreaming, I am creating, I am learning and studying, I am inquiring and preparing. An infinity of dance awaits…

Magic Moments


I remember watching the movie, “Grand Canyon” several years ago. It’s one of my all time favorite movies about life happening.  At one point in the movie, the wife (played by Mary McDonnell) is jogging and finds an abandoned baby. She doesn’t call the police and instead decides to keep it. When her husband (played by Kevin Kline) comes home and decides that she’s crazy, she tells him she believes it to be a miracle.  She tells him “Maybe we don’t have any experience with miracles so we’re slow to recognize them.”

That line has always stuck with me and I believe it to be true about magic.  Perhaps we don’t have enough experience in recognizing when magic happens.

Another line from the Grand Canyon movie during this same scene with the baby is when the husband groans from realizing that he is not going to win this argument and says “I’m getting a headache.” She tells him emphatically, “No. It is inappropriate for you to get a headache in the presence of a miracle.”

I believe that people in the our society today have allowed themselves to become numb to the intricacies of magical moments — they’re not finding and/or having any magical moments because they can no longer recognize them…and most people will not come far enough out of their comfort zone to allow magic to happen.

Magic has always been a part of my life. From the fairy tales my mom used to tell me to watching cartoons about magic to finally recognizing that it exists with every move I make.

My most current magical moment was in realizing that the respiratory cold my body is experiencing is not separate from the shifting consciousness I’m experiencing from my connection and communion with Nia, with Reiki and with Tarot.  That which no longer serves me has to move out in order for that which is waiting to serve me to come into place.  So I am grateful for what is moving out and for what is moving in.

In my last blog post I spoke of the words that had been given to me through spirit:  Gratitude and Forgiveness and the six words that have become my creative process were given to me by my Tarot guru ( Dream, Create, Study, Learn, Inquire and Prepare. My Dream is being created…I’ve already designed a class around dancing Nia to the energy of each of the Major Arcana tarot cards and a workshop designed to delve a little deeper into tarot and movement. I will be studying and learning more about how to best present my dream, I will be inquiring internally and preparing for what comes next.

For those of you who dabble in or know tarot, the cards related to my creative process are:

Seven of Cups:  “I am willing to do what I can to make my dreams a reality.”
Queen of Wands:  “I am powerfully creative. I trust and stoke my inner creative fire.”
The Chariot: “I can steer my life any way I wish”
Ace of Swords:  “New thoughts, ideas” and Eight of Swords REVERSED: “I am always able to find a way.”
High Priestess: “All the answers I need are within me. I trust my own intuition.”
Three of Wands: “I am ready to expand my world. My potential is unlimited.”

The Empress: “My creativity and abundance are unlimited” and the Knight of Cups: “I bring my innermost dreams to life” are my guides through the process.

There is even more being magically placed before me that I am unable to speak about just yet, but I know it’s powerful and I open my arms to what life has to offer.

My birthday was Sunday; my body turned 64 years of age. My spirit is eternal.

Step out of your comfort zone.  Say yes and be blessed.

Moving into 2015

Choose Love

“You can’t forgive without loving. And I don’t mean sentimentality. I don’t mean mush. I mean having enough courage to stand up and say, ‘I forgive. I’m finished with it.”  — Maya Angelou

The guideposts for me moving into 2015 are:  GRATITUDE AND FORGIVENESS

Within those two words my creative process will unfold as DREAM, CREATE, STUDY, LEARN, INQUIRE, PREPARE.  I found it interesting that the first new Nia ( routine I selected to teach in 2015 is called “Dream.”  I love synchronicity.  So, I’m literally “moving” into 2015 with the first word in my creative process — Dream!!

In order for me to bring forth anything new, I have to let go of the old.  I’ve tried stuffing the old into the new, hoping that perhaps a few bulges here and there could be overlooked.  But not so.  The old has to be let go…completely.  My way, the only way I have found to do this, is to forgive and to be grateful.

And as Maya Angelou’s quote suggests, it takes courage.  Courage enough to stand up and say “this far and no further.”  It’s done.  I forgive and now I must move on in gratitude.  The two go hand in hand, gratitude and forgiveness.  They are the mother and father of liberation.

I am free to dream, create, study, learn, inquire and prepare.  My creativity has no boundaries. I am unleashed.

Pressure is a Privilege

Welcome pressure

I’m an avid football fan.  This morning I was watching the NFL channel as they interviewed Larry Fitzgerald from the Arizona Cardinals.  He said, “Pressure Is a Privilege.”  He was of course talking about the pressure his team is sensing with the loss of their quarterback and their push for their division’s title which would give them home field advantage if they were to do so.  I am not an Arizona Cardinal football fan, but I am a fan of pressure.

Back along my spiritual education path, one of my mentors said, “Welcome Pressure.”  At the time those words did not sound inviting.  At the youthful age of 64 (well, almost 64 — exactly 31 days from today, but who’s counting), I can say I understand those words, I acknowledge them as part of my daily living.

The world’s ways (which are not my ways) are to eliminate pressure, to find someone to blame for the pressure, to pursue violence in the name of pressure.  Accusation, blame and criticism are the results of allowing pressure to dominate, rather than allowing pressure to build and release as a creative process.

When pressure begins to build and I am not aware of its intensity, anger is the emotion that shows itself. There was a time when I did not know how to creatively release anger…and when anger raises it’s ugly head and I don’t release it creatively, it winds up locking itself up somewhere in my body — usually in my neck or shoulders. Anger is ancestral; not just in my family ancestry, but in human ancestry.

Two days ago I felt my father’s presence (he’s been deceased since 2005).  I remember saying, “Hi daddy.”  I waited to see if there was a message of some kind.  Nothing.  So I went about my day and that night I had a horrible nightmare.  I woke up the following morning with my shoulder and neck locked up in pain.  There was nothing I could do or did do that relieved it.  I sought out help from a healer who told me that my pain was ancestral on my father’s side.  She knew nothing of the visit from my dad.  My dad had a quick temper; other than anger, I really never saw him emote much at all.  The anger was never directed at me or anyone in my family to my knowledge.  I recognize that anger in me.  So last night I set the intention to resolve the pain in my shoulder.  The message during the night was “release the guilt, you are enough.” I’ve never been troubled by guilt — except for the fact that I never took the time to really know my dad until I was much older. I realize now that I’ve been holding that guilt in for quite some time.  As soon as I embodied the message of releasing the guilt and realizing that who I have become would make my father very happy, my shoulder pain released. Magic.

How about you?  Are you a flawless diamond in the making or is life making you a basket case? What do you do to allow the pressure to release creatively?  I dance, I meditate, I share Reiki, I dabble in Tarot reading.

I am grateful for pressure.  I sense myself to be very much in the process of becoming a flawless diamond. Thank you daddy.

It’s An Inside Job

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I received my December horoscope today from The Tarot Lady.  My mantra for this month is “It’s An Inside Job”.

Interestingly enough, this morning before reading the information contained in my December horoscope, I decided to a) start a daily yoga practice; b) increase my meditation time; c) put together my Winter Solstice Nia routine for December 17th which will be a quieter, more inward-focused class.

I truly love the synchronicity of life’s messages — even from Mother Nature.  The past few days have been in the 40’s but the forecast is for dipping down low into the teens tonight and tomorrow…definitely a time for hibernation for me!

I’m excited about this time for reflection which simultaneously seems to bring about creative ideas for seeding the new year!

How about you?  How are you spending your December days?  Is the weather in your area conducive for making the words “It’s An Inside Job” your mantra?

I’m excited