Rising Up

If Not Now, When

My husband and I have been having conversations about change, about rising up to the challenge of letting go of some pretty ingrained behaviors.  One thing that we’ve come to learn in this process is that letting go of subtle attachments is not easy.  It’s not easy because it’s not easy to identify subtle attachments until they’ve raised their ugly heads.

Testy responses, emotionally-charged reactions, tones of voice, eye-rolling,  listening but not hearing…

Those behaviors have to go.  My purpose on earth is to become fully and wholly ME — not the human form that is known as Jill; not the mind that thinks it knows a lot; not the emotional center that wants to always have its way — but ME (the I Am), fully present, in touch with my divine nature.  The body, mind and heart will always be incomplete and “in progress”. The I Am is perfect NOW, and to discover the I Am doesn’t involve going to the mountain top and focusing on my belly button, or sitting in Lotus position Om-ing til the cows come home.

I Am — a Human BEING.  No, I am not just human — that is merely my form.  What animates that form is BEING charged by spirit.

I love living life in the moment, with clarity and purpose, with conviction and compassion, expressing truth through an incomplete mind, love through an incomplete emotional realm and life through an incomplete body, offering forgiveness to myself and others and always, always, always knowing that gratitude needs to be for ALL things.  There is no picking and choosing.  Am I always 100% in this precious space?

Lots of laughs and eye rolling for sure.  It sure is rewarding being aware of subtle shifts creating HUGE changes.  High five to the husband and me for making it a dance.

 

Reflections class

Tonight is the last Wednesday Nia class in 2015.  I call it my Reflections class.  Normally I would have everyone reflect back on their year. But in this class I’m actually reflecting back on my favorite songs that I taught in my Nia classes in 2015.  There were actually too many songs to fit into an hour class, so I may have to teach 2 classes of my faves of 2015!

If you’re in the mood to dance, find your way to Sacred Space Studio in Hubertus, Wisconsin.If Not Now, When

My playlist for tonight, December 30, 2015:

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Being a Shaman

Leave a trail of magic

I remember several years ago while retaking my Nia White Belt, the trainer asked all of the attendees what we would choose to be if there were a magic wand to make it so.  My answer was a Shaman.

In hindsight, looking back from the day that question was asked up to this current moment, that is exactly the path I have chosen.  I’ve taken several Shamanic Journey workshops and have facilitated a few.  A Shaman perceives everything that exists as alive and as having a spirit.  Shamanism is a path of the heart, not of the mind.  For those who need scientific evidence (required by the mind), you can stop reading now.

I’ve been teaching Nia for 15 years.  My Nia classes all begin in a circle — which is sacred in itself.  I see every class beginning with a ceremony.  We set an intention and then we dance that intention with our bodies.  Sandra Ingerman, in her book Walking in Light: the Everyday Empowerment of a Shamanic Life says, “Ceremony creates a relationship between humans and the creative forces of the universe where intention leads to an action that manifests as change in the physical world.”  THIS is my world — the world of change.  Nia invites change.  Many of my students who have been with me for years have experienced profound changes in their lives — they were and continue to be willing to grow and evolve and move with life’s challenges.

I love my life, the path I find myself traveling and those with whom I share this path.

Start Now.

Leave a trail of magic

It’s been an incredibly long time since I’ve blogged…I actually don’t have any idea how long, but it seems like ages.  Must be the planetary influences that keep me from doing what I need to do. Or perhaps I just don’t need to do it. Imagine that.

The funk has been around for months.  There’s just this underlying, vibrational, energetic push/pull thing and I know it’s not just me.  I also say the world is one big stage with hundreds of people wanting to be heard.  The cacophony of everyone trying to talk the loudest.  We’ve got everyone under the sun wanting everyone else to believe that their lives matter.  Nothing is left out —  race, religion, sexual preference, gender preference, political paths…you name it and there’s someone with a bull horn trying to get my attention.

The way to get my attention is to stop trying to get my attention.  Just stop the insanity.

The world’s way are not my ways. The funk will not win. Rise up my loves, my fair ones and come away.  The victim state is not a pretty one.

You say you want a revolution…make it a vibrational one — raise it up. Let the world’s way disintegrate from lack of substance. There’s ways to create change without all of the killing, without all the lying, without all the hate.

Start now.  The only choice is love.

I Am Still Here

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It’s been a bit of time since I’ve posted on my blog…early January was the last post, shortly after I was offered (by spirit) the guidepost words of Gratitude and Forgiveness for moving into 2015.  Along with those two guidepost words, I was also given (as an invitation from spirit):  Dream, Create, Study, Learn, Inquire and Prepare, Infinity and Dance.

My journey through this invitation from spirit has been nothing less than amazing.  My dream was to create something new and exciting in my studio for those who are looking to expand, to grow, to manifest their own dream(s).  Shortly after this invitation was offered to me, I received a Facebook invitation to an event — a Long Distance Learning (my favorite kind since I don’t like to travel) Kai Earth Immersion.  Kai, developed by Kelly Atkins (who I’ve known since 2001 but have never met in person), is a fitness practice based on the elements of nature (Water, Air, Earth, Fire and Wood) using the architecture of authentic movement, a deepening of a relationship with one’s body — for me it’s a conversation with my own divine nature while moving through an internal landscape of sensations and emotions.

As those of you who have been following my blog know, I’ve been teaching Nia for 14 years.  My passion for sharing and teaching Nia has not dwindled one iota by adding Kai into my class offerings.  In fact, Kai has allowed me to deepen my own relationship with Nia.  The two practices, Nia and Kai, are both cardiovascular in nature (depending on the energy one wishes to expend); however I can also say that the two are as different as night and day — neither better than the other — both offering a wealth of body/mind/emotion/spirit information through movement.

You can find out more about Nia by checking out http://www.nianow.com. You can find out more about Kai by checking out http://www.kaimoves.com.  AND you can actually experience both of these unique fitness practices by attending my classes.  Nia is taught at my studio on Saturday, Monday and Thursday mornings at 9 a.m., Wednesdays at 6 p.m.  Kai is taught on the first two Tuesday evenings of every month at 6 p.m.  As more folks become aware of and interested in my Kai classes, I will expand those offerings.

I am still here…awash in the creative waters of inspiration and movement.  I am dreaming, I am creating, I am learning and studying, I am inquiring and preparing. An infinity of dance awaits…

Magic Moments

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I remember watching the movie, “Grand Canyon” several years ago. It’s one of my all time favorite movies about life happening.  At one point in the movie, the wife (played by Mary McDonnell) is jogging and finds an abandoned baby. She doesn’t call the police and instead decides to keep it. When her husband (played by Kevin Kline) comes home and decides that she’s crazy, she tells him she believes it to be a miracle.  She tells him “Maybe we don’t have any experience with miracles so we’re slow to recognize them.”

That line has always stuck with me and I believe it to be true about magic.  Perhaps we don’t have enough experience in recognizing when magic happens.

Another line from the Grand Canyon movie during this same scene with the baby is when the husband groans from realizing that he is not going to win this argument and says “I’m getting a headache.” She tells him emphatically, “No. It is inappropriate for you to get a headache in the presence of a miracle.”

I believe that people in the our society today have allowed themselves to become numb to the intricacies of magical moments — they’re not finding and/or having any magical moments because they can no longer recognize them…and most people will not come far enough out of their comfort zone to allow magic to happen.

Magic has always been a part of my life. From the fairy tales my mom used to tell me to watching cartoons about magic to finally recognizing that it exists with every move I make.

My most current magical moment was in realizing that the respiratory cold my body is experiencing is not separate from the shifting consciousness I’m experiencing from my connection and communion with Nia, with Reiki and with Tarot.  That which no longer serves me has to move out in order for that which is waiting to serve me to come into place.  So I am grateful for what is moving out and for what is moving in.

In my last blog post I spoke of the words that had been given to me through spirit:  Gratitude and Forgiveness and the six words that have become my creative process were given to me by my Tarot guru (www.thetarotlady.com): Dream, Create, Study, Learn, Inquire and Prepare. My Dream is being created…I’ve already designed a class around dancing Nia to the energy of each of the Major Arcana tarot cards and a workshop designed to delve a little deeper into tarot and movement. I will be studying and learning more about how to best present my dream, I will be inquiring internally and preparing for what comes next.

For those of you who dabble in or know tarot, the cards related to my creative process are:

Seven of Cups:  “I am willing to do what I can to make my dreams a reality.”
Queen of Wands:  “I am powerfully creative. I trust and stoke my inner creative fire.”
The Chariot: “I can steer my life any way I wish”
Ace of Swords:  “New thoughts, ideas” and Eight of Swords REVERSED: “I am always able to find a way.”
High Priestess: “All the answers I need are within me. I trust my own intuition.”
Three of Wands: “I am ready to expand my world. My potential is unlimited.”

The Empress: “My creativity and abundance are unlimited” and the Knight of Cups: “I bring my innermost dreams to life” are my guides through the process.

There is even more being magically placed before me that I am unable to speak about just yet, but I know it’s powerful and I open my arms to what life has to offer.

My birthday was Sunday; my body turned 64 years of age. My spirit is eternal.

Step out of your comfort zone.  Say yes and be blessed.

Moving into 2015

Choose Love

“You can’t forgive without loving. And I don’t mean sentimentality. I don’t mean mush. I mean having enough courage to stand up and say, ‘I forgive. I’m finished with it.”  — Maya Angelou

The guideposts for me moving into 2015 are:  GRATITUDE AND FORGIVENESS

Within those two words my creative process will unfold as DREAM, CREATE, STUDY, LEARN, INQUIRE, PREPARE.  I found it interesting that the first new Nia (www.nianow.com) routine I selected to teach in 2015 is called “Dream.”  I love synchronicity.  So, I’m literally “moving” into 2015 with the first word in my creative process — Dream!!

In order for me to bring forth anything new, I have to let go of the old.  I’ve tried stuffing the old into the new, hoping that perhaps a few bulges here and there could be overlooked.  But not so.  The old has to be let go…completely.  My way, the only way I have found to do this, is to forgive and to be grateful.

And as Maya Angelou’s quote suggests, it takes courage.  Courage enough to stand up and say “this far and no further.”  It’s done.  I forgive and now I must move on in gratitude.  The two go hand in hand, gratitude and forgiveness.  They are the mother and father of liberation.

I am free to dream, create, study, learn, inquire and prepare.  My creativity has no boundaries. I am unleashed.